PART TWO - WHEN SOMETHING IS CRACKED. . .!

written by Hope (J.T.) edited by Faith


Just why can't my soul smile? Just knowing Jesus and who He is, should make me smile? Why can't I tap into that power that I know I have? What is blocking the peace that is already mine?

I know God is here, in me. He is right beside me, holding me in the palm of His hand. I know by reading His Word that He has plans for me. Jeremiah 20: 11 "I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome."

But, yet I hear my soul crying. It continues to do so so loudly that it washes away the joy. I so long for the joy. Maybe it is true, I must not be deserving. No, rubbish. I know better then that. It is a lie of the devil. Why can't I get it and keep it? His Word says, I am loved. He never changes, He is the same today, and tomorrow.

It scares me that the moment I begin to grasp it, to feel some joy seeping in, I freak out. There it is again, it is still a lie from the pit of hell, and I acknowledge that awareness. So, if I acknowledge that awareness, what else do I need to get - what is missing?

Thank you Jesus, a verse pops up in my head - James 1: 2 CONSIDER IT ALL JOY MY BRETHREN (SISTERS) WHEN YOU ENCOUNTER VARIOUS TRIALS.

Oops! It isn't an emotional feeling thing. It is a choice to receive the Joy of the Lord. The gift of joy - the action is to receive it in. It is so much better than all the riches of the world. I hold my hands up, I life my face up to the heavens. And, like a wonderful warm penetrating light from the SUN - SON - it floods in like a tsunami. Immeasurable and consuming. The Joy of the Lord. Because He knows I can't do it alone, I am helpless without Him.

And, best of all - because I desire it so much, I need Him so much, He came. So you see, we can be cracked and lifeless. We can be whining around and wet with tears. We really are blind for a moment, aren't we? But, we are still women after His own heart and we need to RISE above those ill gotten emotional perspectives we get sometimes. Make 2011 the year - you rise above it. Helpless, but desiring His healing touch. His plan for you to get through this "event", loss, or situation. The first three steps of the Twelve-Step AA program goes like this.

" I CAN'T DO THIS JESUS. YOU CAN DO IT JESUS. COME IN AND MAKE ME NEW - SHOW ME HOW!"

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So many women today - feel overwhelmed. They love Jesus, but there are those days today. Long years ago, it was so much simpler. Everyone is trying to analyze why it is so scary and unsafe. Complicated and cracked. All we need really is Jesus glue.
Make Him the source of your cry out for healing. Life isn't going to change as I can see it. I thought a couple years ago, that this was just temporary. Nope. This book for women is about how to manage our emotional responses to the crazy chaos of this world. A new way to access Jesus in our brokenness and know - no matter what is going on, He will show us how to live by Grace - a grace disguised.

Coming up -